"leaving is not enough; you must
stay gone. train your heart
like a dog. change the locks
even on the house he’s never
visited. you lucky, lucky girl.
you have an apartment
just your size. a bathtub
full of tea. a heart the size
of Arizona, but not nearly
so arid. don’t wish away
your cracked past, your
crooked toes, your problems
are papier mache puppets
you made or bought because the vendor
at the market was so compelling you just
had to have them. you had to have him.
and you did. and now you pull down
the bridge between your houses,
you make him call before
he visits, you take a lover
for granted, you take
a lover who looks at you
like maybe you are magic. make
the first bottle you consume
in this place a relic. place it
on whatever altar you fashion
with a knife and five cranberries.
don’t lose too much weight.
stupid girls are always trying
to disappear as revenge. and you
are not stupid. you loved a man
with more hands than a parade
of beggars, and here you stand. heart
like a four-poster bed. heart like a canvas.
heart leaking something so strong
they can smell it in the street."
Frida Kahlo to Marty McConnell, Marty McConnell.
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yes
i am already good at almost all of this, but i do not feel even slightly self-actualized
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long distance friday buffywatch making me very happy
Despite being labelled as “retarded” by the age of five, modern Kennedy scholars typically agree that Rosie’s so-called retardation was likely a mere learning disability.
The pressure of keeping up with two brilliant older brothers and her social butterfly younger sister Kathleen took a significant toll on her self-esteem. She was extremely self-conscious about her weight, even though her sisters readily admitted she was the prettiest of the bunch.
Her private letters and journals reveal a heartbreaking fixation with social acceptance and approval from her family. They also indicate a much greater intelligence than she was given credit for. As she reached young adulthood, she began to sink into deep depression.
However, it should be noted that Rosie, as she preferred to be called, was almost universally adored by those who knew her. Her debut into London society was a roaring success; after playing off a brief onstage stumble on stage with her trademark good humour, she effectively endeared herself to the royal court. She also impressed Franklin and Eleanor Roosevelt during a family visit to the White House.
She loved Winnie The Pooh, sailing, and fashion. As the eldest sister, she was the one who the younger Kennedy siblings came to for comfort and companionship. At the age of 21, the little girl that doctors called “moron” was studying the Montessori method in the hopes of becoming a teacher for the leaning disabled.
Photograph taken at Camp Fernwood, six months before a prefrontal lobotomy left Rosemary Kennedy permanently incapacitated at the age of 23.
Communication
I am talking to you about poetry
and you say
when do we eat.
The worst of it is
I’m hungry too.
Alicia Partnoy
i might’ve had a little thing for the x-files in high school, idk
